posted on Apr 23 @ 3:34 am     3 Comments

Yes… today is the day of the Earth. haha, Isn’t everyday a Earth Day?

I just saw a commercial for “Vote YES for medical Cannabis!” muahahaha that was great. GO ILLINOIS!!

I am pretty fucked up right now… this sickness has taken me over completely I already feel empty and not in my body but the medicine they put me on just make me more like a shell…. shell…. I feel like I am losing myself… getting confused about what I want and where I am and… what I’m doing with myself. I need the motivation to make things change… to makes things better for myself and others. I need to be what I want other people to be for me. It’s time to make things right. Its time for me to really grow up and face life head on. I need to face my mistakes and past. I need to join this reality. I need to be stronger and more independent. 

I’m hoping that after I’m sick things will look different for me… much brighter. More in perspective. 

Oh yeah… I’m in love. 

*Ashley

posted on Apr 19 @ 10:07 pm     1 Comment

Two times in one week… you must be lucky… or I must be crazy =D

I wam watching Vantage Point riht now, I have never seen this movie before but it seems to be pretty good so far. Lots of drama and action haha. 

I have been sick the past two days and DAMN it sucks. I went to the doctor yesterday and he gave me some drugs and mmmmmhm I feel good. Haha. I am almost on cloud nine right now. All I need is some sex for me to be on top of that cloud. XD thats right… I said it. lol. Not that I will be getting it anytime soon but a girl can wish can’t she? lol. 

So I am seriously bored and so not focused for school like I should be. Me being sick has seriously drowned my senses, energy and motivation to do anything. I slept so much yesterday and today, hopefully by tonight I will be much more able and ready to do what I need to do. I will be done with school in less than a month so I need to stay focused so I can get good grades and such.

So I am seriously in LOVE with the Twilight Saga, I mean… I have dreams about these characters every night. lol Its bad. I feel like they are my family and and friends and I know everything about them. I have watched the movie I don’t know how many times and if I had the money I would buy as much memorabilia as my wallet and shelving space would allow. I really want Bella’s engagement ring and her charm bracelet. *le sigh* I cant wait until Stephanie Meyer comes out with Edward’s side of the story. THAT should be interesting. I liked hearing the story through Jacob’s point of view in the last book Breaking Dawn.

but back to my movie because it just got really good hahaha

*Ashley

posted on Apr 15 @ 2:53 pm     0 comment

Here I am…

It has been awhile since I have posted as usual. 

I spent two weeks in Utah and it was the best trip yet. Very exciting, we did a lot of events and saw some old friends and made a few new friends so that was very rewarding. That sounds pretty cheesy huh? lol We went to The Wailers concert and that was totally awesome. I know there was a bunch of other stuff in there but its too early and I currently can’t remember lol I will have to look at pictures. =D

School is killing me lol I am so ready for summer vacation but I only have less than a month so I am super stoked about that. My friend Nikki and Ruthie both left me yesterday… Ruthie went back to New York and Nikki went to Mexico for three weeks, then when she gets back she is going to New York for school. Bahhhh, and Brandon is moving to Florida, Im like WTF how is everyone leaving me like this. 

So I had this dream about these cupcakes OMG they were amazingly decorated lol I love doing stuff like that, I had to write/draw the designs out so I wouldn’t forget them. I’ll have to get around to making them sometime. I have always wanted to have a bakery/cafe or some kind of restaurant. Homemade soups and other dishes and then the bakery. Mmm mmm good. I can taste them now haha. And Did I mention I make a mean sandwich? It’s always filled with love. - Okay I’m done with that as well lol

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I have some plans in the works for this summer and I am super excited about it. I don’t want to say what it is because I don’ t want to jinx it at the moment, but you will soon know of my plans. *snickers*

I am going to go lay back down now lol seeee yaaa later.

*Ashley