I have been gone for quiet some time. Lots of changes have happened. First off my grandma passed away in may and for those of you who know me know that I moved in with her to take care of her while she was sick. So we had to do the funeral and all that kind of stuff. I moved to Nashville, Tennessee and its pretty awesome here lol. The country music does get kinda old after a while. I have a huge urge to just bend over and smack my assl to some hip hop! LMAO.

BUTTTTTTTTT thats all for now beacuse I am in the middle of something.

toodles

I just saw a commercial for “Vote YES for medical Cannabis!” muahahaha that was great. GO ILLINOIS!!

I am pretty fucked up right now… this sickness has taken me over completely I already feel empty and not in my body but the medicine they put me on just make me more like a shell…. shell…. I feel like I am losing myself… getting confused about what I want and where I am and… what I’m doing with myself. I need the motivation to make things change… to makes things better for myself and others. I need to be what I want other people to be for me. It’s time to make things right. Its time for me to really grow up and face life head on. I need to face my mistakes and past. I need to join this reality. I need to be stronger and more independent. 

I’m hoping that after I’m sick things will look different for me… much brighter. More in perspective. 

Oh yeah… I’m in love. 

*Ashley

I wam watching Vantage Point riht now, I have never seen this movie before but it seems to be pretty good so far. Lots of drama and action haha. 

I have been sick the past two days and DAMN it sucks. I went to the doctor yesterday and he gave me some drugs and mmmmmhm I feel good. Haha. I am almost on cloud nine right now. All I need is some sex for me to be on top of that cloud. XD thats right… I said it. lol. Not that I will be getting it anytime soon but a girl can wish can’t she? lol. 

So I am seriously bored and so not focused for school like I should be. Me being sick has seriously drowned my senses, energy and motivation to do anything. I slept so much yesterday and today, hopefully by tonight I will be much more able and ready to do what I need to do. I will be done with school in less than a month so I need to stay focused so I can get good grades and such.

So I am seriously in LOVE with the Twilight Saga, I mean… I have dreams about these characters every night. lol Its bad. I feel like they are my family and and friends and I know everything about them. I have watched the movie I don’t know how many times and if I had the money I would buy as much memorabilia as my wallet and shelving space would allow. I really want Bella’s engagement ring and her charm bracelet. *le sigh* I cant wait until Stephanie Meyer comes out with Edward’s side of the story. THAT should be interesting. I liked hearing the story through Jacob’s point of view in the last book Breaking Dawn.

but back to my movie because it just got really good hahaha

*Ashley

It has been awhile since I have posted as usual. 

I spent two weeks in Utah and it was the best trip yet. Very exciting, we did a lot of events and saw some old friends and made a few new friends so that was very rewarding. That sounds pretty cheesy huh? lol We went to The Wailers concert and that was totally awesome. I know there was a bunch of other stuff in there but its too early and I currently can’t remember lol I will have to look at pictures. =D

School is killing me lol I am so ready for summer vacation but I only have less than a month so I am super stoked about that. My friend Nikki and Ruthie both left me yesterday… Ruthie went back to New York and Nikki went to Mexico for three weeks, then when she gets back she is going to New York for school. Bahhhh, and Brandon is moving to Florida, Im like WTF how is everyone leaving me like this. 

So I had this dream about these cupcakes OMG they were amazingly decorated lol I love doing stuff like that, I had to write/draw the designs out so I wouldn’t forget them. I’ll have to get around to making them sometime. I have always wanted to have a bakery/cafe or some kind of restaurant. Homemade soups and other dishes and then the bakery. Mmm mmm good. I can taste them now haha. And Did I mention I make a mean sandwich? It’s always filled with love. - Okay I’m done with that as well lol

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

I have some plans in the works for this summer and I am super excited about it. I don’t want to say what it is because I don’ t want to jinx it at the moment, but you will soon know of my plans. *snickers*

I am going to go lay back down now lol seeee yaaa later.

*Ashley

my life has been interesting lately.. and so fullfilling.

I started school back up again but over xmas break I went to utah and spent 12 wonderful days with mark…. heavenly really. We did so many things and took so many pictures even thought i thought we didn’t.. hmmmmm one i save them all and get them on my computer ill have to post them to show you how beautiful the mountains are.

ITS NEGATIVE 13 DEGREES OUTSIE AND MY HOUSE IS FREEZING MY FINGERS ARE FROZEN TOGETHER..

I need to go to bed and never get out until its summer hahaahha

I am going to UTAH on the first to be with mark for 12 whole days.. thats great…. ummmmmmm

maple story has taken over my soul….

 Kim and Craig are amazing lol

xmas was cool my grandma made the rolls and cookies I love so much and thats pretty much all i can remember eating so i have been quite hyper with the sugar lately.

Mandee.. this is going to have to hold you over for awhile cause i have important matters to attend to lol.

Can you believe it? Cause I really can’t lol maybe it doesn’t feel like Christmas because Mark isn’t here this time and its been like 5 years since I have had a Christmas without him seems crazy to think its been that long.

SOME ONE MAKE ME WRITE NEW POSTS ALL THE TIME LOL

I a really tired at the moment lol and just wanted to give everyone a holiday blessing. Take care and I will tell you about my future plans lol.

MUAH MUAH MUAH x 1,000,000,000,000

*Ashley

I seem to have noticed that when I write entries now I am at school. haha weird isn’t it? I am writing at school when I should be doing work and when I am at home I never write because I feel like I am too busy for this… or because I have forgotten about it. Or because I know no one reads it. And its not like I can only write because people are watching but it does feel good and motivational that people are expecting something or you or anticipating for that next post.

Me and Mark are back together *insert BIG beating love cheesy heart here*

I am pretty effing happy right now haha, I feel like I have control over my life and I’m not just coasting along for the ride. Things are starting to change between friends and me but for the better. I am starting to really separate myself from the people who don’t do anything good for me or for themselves. And dammit, it feels good. XD

Mark moved to Utah, I KNOW RIGHT!!! But he seems to really enjoy it, I am so happy and proud of him that he got out of that destructive environment. I think him moving out has really opened up the doors a bit for us, things were just to hectic in Miami. I don’t know where this takes us now but I know that I’m loving every minute that I get to call him mine. =] I keep asking myself what I am willing to do for him and really I think thats almost anything and now I am really able to say and do those things. I’m not so selfish anymore.

OMG ITS DECEMBER!!!!! WTF!!!!

I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving I had THREE!!! Mmmmmm I know I gained a few extra pounds there lol. But ill have to work out a bit after the holidays are over haha so I can still fit into the dress for the wedding, and NO its not my wedding. haha. OMG I should totally post a picture.

But since I Am at school its being totally gay and not letting me. DAMN YOU SERVERS!!!

Mmk I really have to get going now but I will try try try try try to be back later.

*Ashley ;yum 

Okay so, I dont have anything to say now…I am on the phone with Mark and trying to give my friend dating advice ahh my life. =]

*Ashley

I am in school… almost finished witht he semester now hah funny how that goes. I am still single…. yeah gay I know. But hey things are looking up that much I can tell.

on a side note… this keyboard I am typing on is super loud and I am like a super fast typer so its kinda annoying me so I can only imagine how it must sound to the other people in this class. Oh well though I will do as I please. My teacher just walked in so i guess I gotta go do some work now. BOOOOO

=] I WILL be back an that is a threat.

*Ashley;cute